Well I'm back. The last three years has truly been a fiery ride through hell and beyond...and i was apprehensive about blogging due to a dominant presence of dark and discouraging thoughts swirling through my mind endlessly; could notice the impending pessimism reflected in the posts of that time. Now it does seem like the veil has lifted...the curse subdued...the horizon less clouded. Leering negativity apart, the positive "take home" from the nightmare is whatever f#&$ happens life will go on...tomorrow is a new day...this too shall pass...and the sun sets only to rise again.
3 years has truly been enlightening...i learned a lot about my life and future...professionally and personally. Reflecting on the bygone times i cud say i effectively learned to apply it practically. But the ripple effects have been startling to see and wonder about. This annoying habit of mine to stumble stop reflect analyze and re-analyze almost always results in people feeling awkward, getting hurt and wondering how weird this guy is..and can get!?!?!? Having established a love-hate relationship with long standing friends....suddenly i realize they have moved on a long way as i was so self-absorbed and caught up in a paradoxical web of hate, disinterest, insecurity and listlessness.
End of the day...when pondering the number of people who effectively were social and didn't receive an identical/favorable response and the socializing opportunities which weren't utilized effectively...the moments that could have been and should have been rather and that was. To try and change everything ASAP is a foolish enough thought but focusing towards this positive effort and trying to evolve into someone more favorable towards the cause at hand is a good thought to start things with i guess.
So here i am...all rejuvenated and fat as ever...trying to rectify the impact of the past on the future and to get back on my feet running and catching up...also dedicating this renewed blog posting spree to all friends from the past, present and future.
Expecting to blog a lot more and of varied content...as my heart and mind pleases. FEEDBACK WOULD BE HEARTILY ACCEPTED AND MOST APPRECIATED.
3 years has truly been enlightening...i learned a lot about my life and future...professionally and personally. Reflecting on the bygone times i cud say i effectively learned to apply it practically. But the ripple effects have been startling to see and wonder about. This annoying habit of mine to stumble stop reflect analyze and re-analyze almost always results in people feeling awkward, getting hurt and wondering how weird this guy is..and can get!?!?!? Having established a love-hate relationship with long standing friends....suddenly i realize they have moved on a long way as i was so self-absorbed and caught up in a paradoxical web of hate, disinterest, insecurity and listlessness.
End of the day...when pondering the number of people who effectively were social and didn't receive an identical/favorable response and the socializing opportunities which weren't utilized effectively...the moments that could have been and should have been rather and that was. To try and change everything ASAP is a foolish enough thought but focusing towards this positive effort and trying to evolve into someone more favorable towards the cause at hand is a good thought to start things with i guess.
So here i am...all rejuvenated and fat as ever...trying to rectify the impact of the past on the future and to get back on my feet running and catching up...also dedicating this renewed blog posting spree to all friends from the past, present and future.
Expecting to blog a lot more and of varied content...as my heart and mind pleases. FEEDBACK WOULD BE HEARTILY ACCEPTED AND MOST APPRECIATED.
