A life well lived

Its always an easy life (atleast physically) when your part of the dependant population. You are comfortable and you got all the time in the world to pursue anything and everything you set your mind upon…no distractions. But…

Lol…but is a beautiful word(stick to this spelling though). A sentence that can raise people’s expectations to the heavens...and this word at the end brings everything down.

I am quite sure all elders do contemplate their lives and relive their moments of joy etc etc. but….in true sense what really is a life well lived? And also…wat really is living the life? This teacher once came to class….bare foot, clad in a dhoti and t shirt and sporting abundant, unkempt facial hair. He spoke amazingly about his life and how he lives it. Now in retrospect I realize that is the actual meaning of freedom and liberty. Its not about the fact that people may find such a person disgusting or indifferent but…living life for himself. That makes a difference especially to that person. A quote I heard “you as a single entity are capable of nothing…cannot even digest your own food ”. This was said by Ilaiyaraja…but aren’t music directors capable of “generating music”?

Anyway am jus blabbing now..and direction of thought is kinda lost…but…

The difference made by indifference

Everybody wonders randomly…about life, about people, about relationships, about leaderships, about qualities, about quantities, about family, about foes, about money, about emotions…many focus many do not. I guess it all depends on how much time is there at hand for wondering. Rarely can people multi-task in the actual sense…eating and watching TV never counted. Every generation had something they could relate to…and amazingly so that such links were deemed global phenomena. War was an amazing attribute that many generations can relate to…my generation also does. But in reality, these “trends” brought about a sense of expressivity and freedom to the entire generation. The people really brought the real human spirit out (willingly or unwillingly notwithstanding) and raw energy was dissipated endlessly. Simplified – world wars, swinging sixties, musical nirvana, awareness and self-involvement…do add if u can recall more (though I’d like global things and not Indian concepts). Every generation gave it all from within but…. what do I do now? The questions am left asking are – are we missing something? Is this an unhealthy trend for our generation? What the fuck!!!

Everybody can divide their lives into distinct phases…some factors being carried over in the phases and some new contradictory factors developed in each phase…. whatever. For me…my earliest memory now is of me standing inside a high domed building with a shiny ceiling and eating an ice cream cone. Following that is me running high temperatures and waiting with elders on a bench outside a doctor’s clinic. Coming back to the phases past in my life so far…. the religious and obedient phase, the individual thinking and questioning phase, the loud mouthed, the cynical, sarcastic phase and arrogant phase, the indifferent and criticizing phase. Now I’d say am into self-realization and spiritualism but….the end product counts. When everyone around you says your wrong….how correct are you? To view the world in another person’s eyes…easily said but THAT WOULD BE AMAZING!!! To speak in paradoxes now….doing something for everyone’s good? Thinking for everyone’s benefit? Talking on everyone’s behalf?

Do such things really happen?

Everybody who reads this….honestly I don’t know what I want to say out loud. Lol…well the movies are – fight club, good will hunting, girl interrupted, patch adams. The reason for these thoughts now maybe…am I really thinking about everybody when I do things? Should I? Shouldn’t I?

What really counts?